i think everything that you just said is totally reasonable. look, i read a book, The Night Stalkers, i had questions, i found this forum by accident, and i thought i would take advantage of the unique opportunity to learn from those who would know best. i do believe there is an awesome story here, but figuring out how to tell it takes time and understanding. before i go through the "proper channels" i wanted to learn a bit more about the subject matter. that's it. if folks are uncomfortable with that, totally reasonable.
We are also very guarded on this forum for those that haven't been vetted. In that light, (and not to nit pick), you say that you are a writer - yet you take the time to capitalize proper nouns, but not 'I', and you miss commas where they should be placed according to writing standards.
It doesn't make your story believable, even though you could be e e cummings re-incarnated.