Ouch...obviously you're right here. I don't have any experience at this point. I haven't even acted as PIC of any military aircraft, let alone operationally. I haven't led anyone in any remotely significant way. And it'll be a few years before I have a real opportunity to do either. All I can say right here, right now is this: I'm happy with my life because, at this point, I'm extremely excited by both of those prospects. I think that's more than a lot of kids who just graduated from college into questionable employment in an uncertain economy can say, though, to be fair, I've never been in that situation so I can't say for sure. I am absolutely aware that I will have to put up with copious amounts of bullshit in the military and that I haven't seen ANYTHING yet. But at the very least, I'm enjoying the anticipation. I'm sure I'm romanticizing the whole thing more than I should, and maybe I'm just setting myself up for huge disappointment...I guess we'll see in a few years.
I'm sorry for throwing out stupid comments based on my own unrealistically optimistic hopes for my future. And really, I just need to STFU...every time I open my stupid O-1 mouth around here, I'm promptly shown the 100% pure unadulterated fvcking retardedness of my ways. But I'm ok with it...because deep down, I know that's what's supposed to happen when ensigns say stuff.