Floppy_D
I am the hunted
It's the board's job to tell you that you aren't good enough, not yours. Apply and let them make the call. It's probably a good idea to stop sharing a rack with your frat buddies and focus on your goal. There's no shame in making juvenile mistakes and learning from them. I've dropped my fair share of balls (but not in the same context you frat guys do. Hell, you probably don't even drop them anymore, with all the practice.)
Good luck, keep after it.
Good luck, keep after it.