I take from your post that you're still in HS. So don't sweat the homesickness/I don't want to be away from home much yet/3000 miles is a long way thing. Trepidation upon leaving home is natural, as is learning to get over it.
Your bigger issue is not really wanting to go to USNA but feeling like you should. Yeah, it's a great place to be from, but if you're not raring to go, and weren't real thrilled with your exposure at Seminar, I can tell you right now: you won't make it. Not saying you're weak or a failure - the Boat School is tough for anyone, even if you walk in the door 100% raring to go and chomping at the bit. About the only easy thing to do there is quit, and if you come in already feeling half-hearted about it, you'll be back home before the summer's done.
On the other hand, if you get an appointment and decide to go for it, my advice is absolutely commit to stick out Plebe Year. Otherwise you're just wasting a spot that someone else wanted. Make it to the end of the ac year, get a real sense of what USNA's all about, climb Herndon with your classmates. If you decide to walk then, you've got a free year of college under your belt and a well-deserved sense of accomplishment. You can honestly say then that USNA just wasn't for you, not that you quit because it was too hard.
Your bigger issue is not really wanting to go to USNA but feeling like you should. Yeah, it's a great place to be from, but if you're not raring to go, and weren't real thrilled with your exposure at Seminar, I can tell you right now: you won't make it. Not saying you're weak or a failure - the Boat School is tough for anyone, even if you walk in the door 100% raring to go and chomping at the bit. About the only easy thing to do there is quit, and if you come in already feeling half-hearted about it, you'll be back home before the summer's done.
On the other hand, if you get an appointment and decide to go for it, my advice is absolutely commit to stick out Plebe Year. Otherwise you're just wasting a spot that someone else wanted. Make it to the end of the ac year, get a real sense of what USNA's all about, climb Herndon with your classmates. If you decide to walk then, you've got a free year of college under your belt and a well-deserved sense of accomplishment. You can honestly say then that USNA just wasn't for you, not that you quit because it was too hard.