I get you totally bro! Because of my family and my age all logic says I should put both SNA and SNFO to maximize my chances. I don't want to miss out entirely and put my family in a tough spot just because I wanted to fly the plane myself so badly haha. But at the same time, I don't want to end up as an NFO when I could have been a pilot and fulfilled a life long dream! I'd be happy with both... but I'd be SIGNIFICANTLY more excited to become a pilot. I'd be blessed to have a career as an NFO, but I'd spend that career wishing every single day that I was the one flying the aircraft. Gotta get those scores high enough to warrant the risk of only putting one option I suppose.
You and me both! LASIK wasn't cheap man and I could've just saved the money and gone for NFO but dang it I want to fly so freaking badly!